Apathy?

Every time I log in here I think it's been ages since I last wrote, and every time, I realise it hasn't been quite that long. In any case, it's getting to the point where it's been too long.

I have (dare I say it?) writer's block. Not real writer's block: I can write my day to day stuff, I can write about my PhD project, I can write a little bit of fiction); but I feel very lazy about writing on the blog. Not just because it takes time and effort (part of the reason) or because my home laptop has broken and I can't use the keyboard anymore (any suggestions for good keyboards? Or for a new laptop for that matter?), but simply because I have been missing originality. Not just in my writing, but in what I read. On Twitter, on Facebook, on the papers, even books! Everything reads stale. Like each person is repeated what someone else said for the millionth time. It's exhausting. And it's boring. Having to say the same things over and over and over again. Having to fight. Having to argue over the same things, make the same points. I find myself picking arguments with people I agree with just for a breath of fresh air (to any of my friends or colleagues I've done this to: my sincerest apologies. I am just bored when it comes to discourse). Even this blogpost feels stale, I think I've written it before (but again, I am a bit lazy about looking it up and linking it, because what's the point? You reading a duplicate? Having a blog that reads like the Guardian articles where any buzzword is linked, even if the link has little to do with the original article).

Don't get me wrong, there are things I want to write about: I want to write about sex and race in biology. But I don't want the fights that come with it. I want to write about sexism (or lack thereof) in science. But I don't want the fights that come with it. I want to write about whether or not it's "normal" to want to own a house and live independently. But I don't want the fights that come with it. I want to write about animal rights and veganism. But I don't want the fights that come with it.

Some may say I'm lazy, or not engaged enough, that I don't care enough. Maybe they're right. Or maybe I've come to the realisation that people are stubborn and don't change and that arguing is only going to lead to bittersweetness, to the realisation that people are stubborn and don't change.

So yeah. I guess this is me saying I don't want to convince people anymore. I don't want to argue. Anyways. If anyone wants to suggest a topic to write about, feel free (not promising I'll do it). I might feel more inclined if I think my opinion actually matters to someone.